getting older isn’t as bad as it sometimes sounds. i’m a year and a few months away from hitting the big 3-0, and so far i’m still feeling as young at heart as i did a decade ago. of course, my life has changed drastically since then, but those are mostly lifestyle changes.
except, of course, physically. and no, i don’t mean arthritis or creaking joints or any other ailments associated with old age. aside from getting tired a bit more easily, which i attribute to zero exercise for the past three years, everything’s still pretty much A-okay.
except for my weight. call me superficial, but i’m starting to really get bothered. i don’t know if it’s just a sign of aging, with my metabolism slowing down, or if it’s because i have two kids already, or the zero exercise that i mentioned, or an irritating combination of all three. or maybe even the simple fact that my appetite and enjoyment of food hasn’t died down since high school days. in fact, i love to eat even more than ever.
here are the stats: in my dalaga days, the heaviest i’ve ever been was 122 pounds. now, i’m almost at 140. and my waistline, which used to be 25-26, is now at 31 inches.
spectacular! amazing! depressing!
when i joke about it with my friends, they try to console me by pointing out that i have two kids already. and that with the way i eat, i should even be far heavier than i am today. should i be happy with that? i’m not.
and these days, i feel so much more insecure than i’ve ever been. i’ve always had low self esteem, but with so many people taking note of my weight (some less tactfully than others), it’s at rock-bottom at the moment.
so even though it isn’t time for it yet traditionally, here’s my resolution: start exercising. and though i can’t diet yet (chesca’s still 100% breastfed), be more conscious about my eating habits. (hey, when did i ever start thinking that eating four or more solid meals a day was good for me?) accept criticisms and comments about my weight gain more gracefully. after all, it is a fact.
here’s to greeting 2011 with a healthier and (hopefully) lighter me. tips, anyone? 
dec 4, 2010. braso, anyone?
I agree.. exercise should come first before you start any diet. Doing both at the same time will not be maintainable.
yeah, well i can’t diet anyway yet. my baby’s still 100% breastfed. hehe.. kaya exercise muna nga. but my muscles are protesting the abuse after 3 years of rest! hehe..