i’m not a country music fan. and i don’t even really know who randy travis is. but i was watching reruns of extreme makeover: home edition, and he performed at a fund-raising concert on the show. the song he sang was in most respects a typical country song: melodramatic lyrics, upbeat tempo, lots of “twang”. but the few lines of the chorus really struck me. they were simple, uncomplicated, true.

dedicated as usual to hubby.

FOUR WALLS (randy travis)

Yeah, we’ve got everything that we need,
Between the two of us:
Four walls, three words, two hearts, one love

that’s it in a nutshell.

 Instructions:
* Next to each number, write the name of the person who fits the description.
* Answer one question with one name only.
* Don’t reveal the questions to anyone who isn’t doing the meme.
* Those who want to know what the questions are must do the meme on their own blogs, on pain of wrath from the meme gods.
GAME!!

1. marge
2. ygy
3. patty
4. patty
5. van
6. wala e..
7. jon
8. marge
9. ferdie
10. mama lina (of course!)
11. iza
12. bootsie
13. huh? wala e..
14. ting
15. franco (just for laughs! and i’m sure cute pa din sya)
16. aileen
17. denise
18. franco
19. rey
20. didi
21. mommy! haha..
22. van
23. ferdie
24. mommy? haha
25. marge
26. ferdie!!! hahaha
27. didi
28. daniel
29. ferdie
30. happy new year! hehe..

 

**taken from facebook, care of kish

i used to watch this series when i was in grade school, i think. or was it early high school? whenever it was, there was this show on tv starring linda hamilton (most known for her role in terminator) that i was hooked on. and i specially loved its soundtrack.

recently, i was thrilled to find out that my sister in law had a cd with the show’s theme song on it. and now, every time hubby and i go out, i listen to the song in the car – much to his dismay. hehe i keep singing out loud and emoting, i just love the song that much. and although it’s a bit cheesy, i think he’s warming to it too. hehe..

it’s just an added bonus that the lyrics are appropriate too. so if you have time, look up the song. it’s old and not too popular, but i’ll bet it’ll sound familiar to you. enjoy.

THE FIRST TIME I LOVED FOREVER (melanie) — dedicated to my hubby as usual..

The first time I loved forever was when you whispered my name.
And I knew at once you loved me for the me of who I am.
The first time I loved forever I cast all else aside.
And I bid my heart to follow, be there no more need to hide.

And if wishes and dreams are merely for children, and
if love’s a tale for fools,
I’ll live the dream with you.

For all my life and forever, there’s a truth I will always know.
When my world divides and shatters, your love is where I’ll go

christmas is just a month away, and if i could go out and splurge right now, these things would be on my wish list:

1. 16gb iPhone

2. Mac mini and/or Macbook Air

3. the complete Calvin and Hobbes collection

4. a LazyBoy recliner

5. a huge inflatable swimming pool for franco Ü

6. Pugad Baboy 1, 2 and 3

7. a new home theatre system (to replace the one we currently have at the main house)

8. WOW magic sing Concerto series (e ano kung baduy? wish list ko ‘to!! haha)

9. digital photo frame

10. as long as i’m making a wish list anyway —> a house in subic, so our littlefamily can be together Ü

it’s a little less than a half hour to go before november 24, 2008. and our little prince franco will be four months old. four months – it passed by so quickly. to say it was just like the blink of an eye would be greatly exaggerating, but it seemed like maybe a month or so. it’s been tiring, fun, a test of my own fortitude, and most of all, a great learning experience. and to think it’s only been four months. i shudder to think what i’ll be going through when my baby’s old enough to make ligaw. hehe..

happy “birthday” franco!! daddy and mommy love you! *mwah!!*

these past two weeks have been oh so tiring. i thought i was making the right decision when i chose to do direct breastfeeding – and no cheating with formula! i thought i was being a good mom by turning the airconditioner on every time my precious baby broke into a sweat.

well, i may have made the right choice, and i may be a good mom for not allowing my baby to suffer – but damn. i’m tired. baby franco has grown so dependent on me that he can barely sleep soundly without me by his side. and i can’t leave the house without planning days in advance because i have to leave enough of my milk for my baby. last, and worst of all i think, is that franco gets so cranky everytime the weather is warm. which is unfortunate, seeing as the philippines is so close to the equator. hay.. tiredness. i feel so haggard. and my identity is so wrapped up in my baby, i feel like there’s no more camille without franco, and vice versa. my life totally revolves around baby and his care.

okay, i just wanted to vent a bit. yeah, it’s so tiring being a hands-on mom. and maybe i haven’t made the best choices both for me and baby. but the thing is, even through the bone-tired feeling and the increasingly sleepless nights, i’m happy. fulfilled, even.

“why?”, you may ask.

it’s an indescribably happy feeling, to wake up in the middle of the night with this warm little person snuggled in my arms. and when he wakes up, he wriggles like crazy to get ever so close to me. when he cries, and i walk into the room, he smiles just hearing my voice or seeing me. it makes me laugh out loud with each new facial expression of his, his new game of “kickboxing” (he kicks, i “box” his feet), every loud burp or fart. and even though i don’t get much sleep lately, sometimes i just lie awake at night and cherish the feeling of his tiny hand holding my finger tight. as if to let me go would mean the difference between life or death.

there’s no doubt in the world that there will be many more tiring days and nights to come. but i also eagerly await each new milestone, each smile, each sudden burst of laughter from my baby. and i forget why i ever said i didn’t want children.

..and it’s back to subic for hubby ferdie. another five days of waiting. this weekend was specially tiring: super duper last minute preparations for the dedication, dealing with a cranky baby, getting into a public argument with someone i despise.. two days with one of the people who can help cheer me up really isn’t enough. i need more alone time with ferdie, or a vacation with patty boots and ting.

bone tired and missing you – not one of my better days.

 

To see you when I wake up
Is a gift I didn’t think could be real.
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold, Utopian dream.

You do something to me that I can’t explain.
So would I be out of line if I said “I miss you”?

I see your picture.
I smell your skin on
The empty pillow next to mine.
You have only been gone ten days,
But already I’m wasting away.
I know I’ll see you again
Whether far or soon.
But I need you to know that I care,
And I miss you.

- i miss you (incubus)

…i’ve been 90% good so far this year. i’ve been through a lot, and i can say i’ve been dealing with everything that has come my way with a good deal of patience. i haven’t gotten anything for myself this year, even when i thought i deserve some sort of reward for good behavior. my phone’s on the blink, and i’m still in mourning for my beloved iPod.

i’m waiting for an iPhone, santa.

it had been a long, long time since the four of us last got together. i can’t even recall right now when the last time was, just that it’s been more than a year.

the ninangs dropped by to visit gwapoging franco. at one point in the evening, i went to the bathroom. ninang ting went in for the kill. (as seen above..) i had to laugh at franco’s expression, although the poor baby couldn’t do anything to defend himself.

hay.. miss you guys.

patty + boots + ting + camille = good times.

there are some songs that are so appropriate for certain situations and certain people.. that’s why i created a new category for this blog: songs for my hubby..

right now, hubby ferdie is working in subic.. and he only comes home during weekends. it’s tough, me staying home and having a two-month old baby to take care of too. but we’re getting by. here’s a song i’ve always loved, and it seems all the more bittersweet and appropriate given our situation now.

wuv you ferdie. mondays thru fridays, the days are just shadowed memories.

 

HERE WITH ME (dido)

i didn’t hear you leave
I wonder how am i still here
I don’t want to move a thing
It might change my memory
Oh i am what i am
I’ll do what i want
But i can’t hide
I won’t go
I won’t sleep
I can’t breathe
Until you’re resting here with me
I won’t leave
I can’t hide
I cannot be
Until you’re resting here with me

I don’t want to call my friends
They might wake me from this dream
And i can’t leave this bed
Risk forgetting all that’s been

Oh i am what i am
I’ll do what i want
But i can’t hide
I won’t go
I won’t sleep
I can’t breathe
Until you’re resting here with me
I won’t leave
I can’t hide
I cannot be
Until you’re resting here with me